If you contemplate any tree like this one you will discover sooner or later yourself.
Your outer self
Made of mind and body is like the branches and the leaves and is always, always moving, never resting, coming and going.
Your inner self
Also called "Genuine self", "True self" made of the main trunk and its deep unseen roots is the strong and still self.
Meditation is helping us to quiet the top and discover the unseen.
A life time experience for most of us.
Do not desperate, we are here to assist you in your journey.